Good afternoon everyone,
I introduce myself my name Laura and I am 34 years old, I am a diabetic since the age of 9.
I have read you many times but until today I had not decided to enter the forum.
Today I do it because I need to vent and I can't think of a better place to express my fears.
In relation to my diabetes I will tell you that I have it quite at bay, although as you know all not every day they are perfect and there are times when you rebel but based on many controls I am going to.
The problem that I want to tell you is based on how to tell my diabetes to another person, I put a little in a situation, I have never been announcing that I am a diabetic, my friends know it, of course also but the truth is that I lead a lifeFully normal, with that I mean that if we remove the 8-10 daily controls, my calculation of hydrates and the punctures, that I have so internalized that I already do by inertia, the rest of my life is like that of any other.I have lived alone, work, study and ultimately do what I can like the rest of the mortals.I have never liked saying good that I am diabetics for not feeling judged and that is now costing my nerves.
I have a partner for a few months and I still don't know that I am a diabetic, believe me I know that I should have said it
From the beginning but now it is done and although I am wrong I can not torture more for it.
At first we began to leave in a "eventual" way and we did not think that this would end in a relationship for what
That I didn't think about it either, then the thing was putting it would be but we had some fights and let it pass.
I have been living alone for some time and I am quite independent so I am also used to handling my diabetes alone and as I said before it is so many years that for me it is like washing my teeth I almost do without thinking, in fact I do notIt causes any trauma clicking or getting controls as many times as it bothers me is to cause pity, I must admit that I can't.
Well now we are together again and well but it torments me the idea of thinking that I have not told him about
My diabetes.
He is a "ignorant" person in terms of diabetes, I do not judge it is normal I am also ignorant in thousands of things.The point is that it is one of those who believe that if a diabetic takes a candy, it falls fulminated to the ground immediately, or that there is very chunga diabetes, that is, it is mine, and the good, the II, or that the peopleIt dies because it is diabetic, I do not say that we cannot die we already know that the complications if you do not take care of yourself can be disastrous but if you control you can live as much as anyone!
This is why he has a well -known diabetic and these comments have come out through his mouth, the point is that when I decided to tell him and listened to some of this, my soul went to my feet and shut up.
I think he will feel sorry for me, or think that I have deceived him or believe that I do not take care of me because as of everything and lead a normal life.I have to say that I do a normal life and like everything, I do not fed up with cakes but if one day I feel like a dessert I add the insulin corresponding to the portions I control more after eating and ready!I eat it the same.
These ideas are driving me crazy, the situation is causing me anxiety and I have panic to tell you for fear
to your reaction.I am criticism with myself and I know that I have done it wrong but now I do not see how to do it, I look like an frightened girl and recently I think we lived together.I have to say that I want to love me and I too, but I can't help being terrified.
I am sorry to hit this roll but I needed to vent!
I thank you in advance.