Hello, I'm Victor.
I am 15 years old, 6 days ago I had been in 1 month for years.
I suffer from type 1 diabetes since the age of 8, I began to feel thirst, headache, I felt, sad, I went to the bathroom and my grandmother noticed it.
He told my mother to take me to the doctor, to what he agreed.For bad luck, that damn day I would find out about the worst.
How are you going to explain to an 8 -year -old boy who has diabetes?What your blood sugar level was 220?How are you going to feel when you see the doctor's astonished face?To your mother cry
Am I going to die?I told him when he left the consultation.It was the only thing I told her in all that moment, while she only cried and saw me with a face, I don't want to remember.
I started going to Nutriologos, different doctors, I am from Mexico, trip to another city (Torreon) where they paid for an insulin that was a pen.To surprise, it didn't work for me.
Then in my control, I was assigned a pediatrician and this recommended the rapid and intermediate action insulin.A year later, I had my first sugar downturn, I got down to 50 and fainted.I woke up on a stretcher and with the doctors supplying medications and giving me a jumex juice.I still remember that, and giving recommendations to my mother.
Another year later, in full pandemic, I remember, I had a diabetic ketoacidosis and pancreatitis.I had a fatal, I still remember having seen my late father (I am a father orphan from the age of 6) far, in a white tunnel, I approached him, but he, he moved away from me.As if I wanted me to live.All this while it was transferred from emergencies in an ambulance at full speed, that day I was almost dying.2 year after that, in 2023 I started neglecting my diabetes.I felt without desire, with fear, many fears, I stopped doing sports, riding a bicycle, I started to eat everything without measurement, of course, my mother scolded me but it was worth me.Until today.
I remember that 2023 morning, I started feeling, dizzy, without desire, I had the mind blank, I could not think well, I was very afraid of death, and, to the future, and, to everything.I went to a doctor and told me it was anxiety.He said it was anxiety, and, he gave me antidepressant medications, I don't know if it was anxiety, but since then they pursue me a series of symptoms.From tinnitus, tremors (not noticeable) on feet t hands, I listen to my heartbeat in my ear and see flying flies.In addition to that fear of dying and the future.I don't know, just, I'm afraid that it is a complication of my diabetes :(.
I have cried nights, thinking about why, because I am skinny, I have been skinny, nobody in my family has diabetes, just me, I'm afraid now to do analysis, ultrasound, I don't do it 6 months for fear, I'm afraid, I'm only 15 years old, I know I don't take care but I am afraid, I don't want to die, I don't want to be blind.Thus, will I have serious complications?
I need your help, please, a advice, a memory that I will not die young and why.I need it :(.
Thank you
