@Jose3332 It is normal for you to become obsessed, we have all gone through that stage and those that will come.
I have found the balance for the days that I cannot control the diabetes and that despair, before there were few and now they are 2 or 3 per month.
It is very simple: I take care of everything I can and I am satisfied with myself because I can't do more.I am not God and a doctor would do much more with their knowledge.So, it will happen and the next day we will see.
Before I spent the day looking at the glucometer, now I simply look at it if I notice something or I know that I will have hiccup because I have happened with some last minute hydrate that has felt like it and I had not calculated in the insulin bolus (the typical cookie orOne more piece of fruit)
Ideally, be healthy.What do we have?A disease without a cure, without fixed guideline and which have only worried about putting means of control, but not healing.