Hello,
I am 25 years old and I have been diabetic.From the beginning I did not take it with the seriousness that I owed, I have never been a totally disciplined person and when this disease arrived and this great change in my life the situation did not change.
From the beginning I ate what I wanted, did not weigh the food and made me controls and put me insulin when I should.Every time I had to go to the doctor I made me very nervous because I knew they were going to take the anger because of how bad I was doing, finally I ended up sending me to the psychologist and after this he told me not to return to the hospital since he did not docase or what told me or anything ...
Many years have passed and many episodes, many hemoglobins (I have only managed to get out of 7 once (6.8), the last one is 7 and peak and I don't know ...
It is a subject that I have been aware of a long time.I have suffered a lot with this disease, a lot of frustration, it has happened a lot, I have done what has gone to me ...
My current situation is as follows: Every time I stay with my friends I drink beer or wine, just like the rest or more.
I am a very impulsive and unstable person and there are times that if I enter anxiety, it gives me to buy chucheías, ice cream, buns ... of everything you can imagine and in large quantities.
I am aware that if the person in the store knew that I am diabetics I would think that I am crazy ... and in a way it seems that I am.
I have proposed many times doing things well, some with more success than others, I am aware of the consequences that this disease has but in a way I do not want to be aware.
Maybe I think that it can't happen to me ... I think it's a very hard path that is about to come.
I don't know what I must do ...
Think that I will not be able to try an ice cream or a cane in my life? ...
Do you really have to take it that way?
I have many reasons to live, I want to be a mother, I want to enjoy life as I have done all these years ... and for this I think I have to be very strong and make a sacrifice that I have not done so far, put my puthealth first before any temptation and not let me carry ...
Anyway ... I don't know if someone will feel identified with what I write, or I am the worst diabetics in the world ... serious consequences have not yet appeared in my health but I do not want to continue punishing my body.
A very big greeting to all and thanks for reading me, I think that simply writing this I am taking a step forward.
Thank you!