15 years of shit.

Hello.
Well if we start calling diabetes "years of shit" there is not much to say.I do not consider my life "shit". What do I have to control?Exercise I compensate for an extra meal, etc., I have the glucosilada at 7.2 but my endocrine told me that I never go to bed with less than 140, and it is better high than having many hypoglycemia, since they "eat you neurons"With all that and so far I am fine in terms of problems derived from diabetes. That I have a disease and I have to monitor it?, Yes, my neighbor Manolo who lived in his ball with tobacco, drink etc.And two years ago that "I travel" to the other neighborhood with a stomach cancer. Man, I do not think "travel".I suck two u.But and afterto kill. So that and the bull.

pot said:
hello.
Well if we start calling diabetes "years of shit" there is not much to say.I do not consider my life "shit". What do I have to control?Exercise I compensate for an extra meal, etc., I have the glucosilada at 7.2 but my endocrine told me that I never go to bed with less than 140, and it is better high than having many hypoglycemia, since they "eat you neurons"With all that and so far I am fine in terms of problems derived from diabetes. That I have a disease and I have to monitor it?, Yes, my neighbor Manolo who lived in his ball with tobacco, drink etc.And two years ago that "I travel" to the other neighborhood with a stomach cancer. Man, I do not think "travel".I suck two u.But and afterto kill.

Thanks for your testimony, it seems very encouraging.

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xavi said:
15 years ago I have this terrible disease.

Living in the frightful jail that represents being constantly fearing for sugar, thinking of the time of the next insulin injection, in the fear of the horrible dry them, to the constant ups and downs of sugar ... 15 years ago that I do not live.

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When I appeared with 20 years I still tried to make a normal life, but I didn't enjoy all those fears either, I went to several psychologists but nothing.Now with 35 years several fainting and some problems derived from this (even having good control and HG of 6.1) I no longer do anything out of my routine life.

It is also true that my life was already a bit bad before all this, but at least I could live it without being pending this shit.I do not understand how you can be so "happy" or at least it seems that you get along.

I'm sorry to be so negative in my presentation but it's what I feel.

Good morning, I feel that you feel like that, I have 32 and I have 30 with my friend ... I have spent very difficult moments oero you have to learn to live with this, all we have left is to control them!Much encouragement !!!!!!!

xavi said:
15 years ago I have this terrible disease.

Living in the frightful jail that represents being constantly fearing for sugar, thinking of the time of the next insulin injection, in the fear of the horrible dry them, to the constant ups and downs of sugar ... 15 years ago that I do not live.

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When I appeared with 20 years I still tried to make a normal life, but I didn't enjoy all those fears either, I went to several psychologists but nothing.Now with 35 years several fainting and some problems derived from this (even having good control and HG of 6.1) I no longer do anything out of my routine life.

It is also true that my life was already a bit bad before all this, but at least I could live it without being pending this shit.I do not understand how you can be so "happy" or at least it seems that you get along.

I'm sorry to be so negative in my presentation but it's what I feel.

I've been 32 years old, I don't tell you anymore.

Greetings

xavi said:
as you can't multite will answer others one or one.

The endocrine told me that it was normal in a diabetic to have those problems, but to prescribe Viagra I had to go to another specialist to do more tests but lately I do not feel like doing anything.I don't know what to do.The truth is that at 20 when debuting they already told me in the clinical hospital that I had little sex.I have never known why.Did you also tell you?

Hi Xavi, what you say leaves me hallucinated by the ignorance of some professionals or how they lead to their professional practice personal prejudices, which is what seems to me.
Why little sex?Did he give you any argument or let him let him go so wide?Maybe it is spent so much to use it.
Not even in my time, almost 56 years ago, nobody told me such a barbarity, others of course.
I can understand a responsible sexual practice for that of venereal diseases, but no more than any other person.We are going for one thing that is free, being so young I would say that the recommendation would have to be the opposite.
Unfortunately, the problem is another, impotence is not a trivial thing, but it already knows that not only neuropathy influences, but also and much depression, anxiety, stress and all that cohort that often accompanies diabetes.It is very important to treat not only diabetes but the concrete problem of impotence.An endocrine is most likely that he has no idea about impotence and his approach, the most advanced techniques etc.
I will tell you, in case my experience serves you that I have much better sex, much better, than before, especially from the menopause that I left behind many mental rolls and a specialist in Pelvis physiotherapy taught me a couple of techniqueAnd wonderful lubricants, since for women this can be a problem.It is also true that my partner helps and is delighted with everything I learned to me already "advanced age."
Xavi, I am convinced that these problems can have a better solution by focusing it from a broader point of view, not only centered on diabetes.
I, just an example of everything that this therapist sent me, I was wearing Chinese balls half an hour daily for a year while I was walking or dancing and you don't see what helped that.Neither Kegel exercises nor anything so laborious.
Surely for men there are thousands of other options, after all, impotence is increasing, the lack of pasta, stress, in short a non -stop.
So trust that there may be a remedy that helps you reduce your suffering, only that you have to take the first step since as Woody Allen said "there are only two important things in life. The first is sex and the second does notI remember. "

A very strong hug

Hello everyone.I feel that you are so depressed for having diabetes you have a perfect gyzType I gyzed 7 and I am fine I have nothing and I have a very normal life, with my ups and downs but I try to solve them quickly and with my resources, work, do sports, I have 2 teenage daughters and everything is fine.The world is not over yet.You all are so afraid of complications if you behave more or less well you can have a full life I do not do anything special I follow a Mediterrània diet;Physical exercise I work out of home and look at my sensor before each meal and then and just correct myself because I prefer to be 150 Q to 40. I have achieved the objectives that I have proposed like everyone else and that's it.As a little less than others and it takes something more to make the bags than others because I have to carry more things for diabetes and always carry sugar on top.Otherwise how everyone.If complications appear, the better and if they do not appear even better.My life has not been easy but here I am not regretting what I have done alone of what I have not done but I still have life to try to do what is pending.
Courage do not bitter, look for solutions your diabetes cannot be changed but your life is.

Cheer up

Xavi
I have been diabetic for 43 years and I have 45
I think, as many have told you, that your problem is not to be diabetic, you will be having a bad streak and you see the glass half empty ...
In addition to being diabetic, as "my doctors" say I have a basket of varied autoimmune diseases ...
What I do?I threw me out the window?
Go to a great hospital, to children and look at the desire to live and eat the world that children have with truly terrible diseases, who cannot make normal, real normal!
My parents also told me that in 5 years I was cured!Sure!!!And I have 43!
I can only tell you that being diabetic helps you focus on life in another way, with a positivity and a desire to eat the world that characterize us "sweets"
So I encourage!Look for the desire to live in full, which I assure you that after 43 years I still have them and I hope and I want you to find them too
And surely this forum you find them

I have been feeling it for 32 years and it is a fucking crap of illness, in addition to it comes an entire bouquet of various diseases, eye, cardiac, renal, circulation .... Apart that limits you a lot in your day by day and do not solveThe problem, since 1927 all they have done is change from feathers, make the shortest and finer needles (they are still needles), and improve the duration of slow or basal insulin at 24 h and what if I see an advanceThey are the glucose sensors, which at least do not click your finger, and although I do not use pumps, those that are linked with insulin pumps and react when the glucose warned by the sensor rises.

Nobody knows any Fatima Bosch?I saw a video where I explained how through a gene therapy they achieved through injecting 2 vectors that the muscles absorbed the sugar in excess blood and never caused hypos or hyper, the research in dogs, poor animals, managed in 2 years to control their glycemiaOn an empty stomach at 90-95 and after meals it would not go from 140. I have searched on social networks, and I have not found anything about this woman, has disappeared ...

@ROGERIX
I think you mean this, right?
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There are quite a few reviews where Fátima Bosch appears Link NEWSID = 1345823677820

@Repipa but that is from 2014 and 2020, is there something today about that therapy?

xavi said:
15 years ago I have this terrible disease.

Living in the frightful jail he represents (...)

Hi Xavi.
Hello everyone.
I have registered on this page just to answer you, to write here ... because I have been very bad for a very bad time, with an inner sadness that is just killing me.
Yes, I also carry inside the same demon as you and I think exactly the same as you.I guess we have very similar problems and we are both at the limit, although my life fell apart in 1996, when I was 21 years old.Without family history, good nutrition, without smoking, without drinking, athlete ... and overnight, everything went for the drain.
I know how you feel and forgive that I don't give you encourage you because I don't even have them for me.In my current situation, although I make a "normal" life I have in mind that I do not have much left, that any day will come the situation that puts me before my red line, that which many years ago I have drawn and I am not willing to transfer and thenThe end will come.Because yes, I've been thinking that this will be the time when I end my life.
On the way to the Calvary that has been this disease I have encountered many problems, from "banal" as a folliculitis through a deep depression from which I hardly come out (and there are still many sequelae) anxiety, helplessness ...
But in short, one day (for which less and less is missing) I will reach the red line and then the hell and the absurdity will end in which my life has become over the years, while rolling downhill andNo brakes.At first, slowly, then ... like a rocket.
That day, a bottle with 3 cubic meters of nitrogen and a conveniently sealed hotel room awaits me ... or my car in a place with good views.I have thought of Finisterre, in turning the valve with the last sunset on the sea ... and although my faith is quite precarious, I pray to God because the time has come of such need, the value does not miss me.
Anyway, in the end I will be encouraged equally: endures.While you can.We have no other .
I don't know what your situation is, hopefully better than mine.I live for not just killing my parents (if I were now in my way they would not last long) and for not putting the whore to my girl ... although after the time we have not been sex (and seeing my other perspectives) stillI don't know how it hasn't fled.That is what gives me the most, it kills me to think that I should never have begun this relationship ... knowing that I could never be happy and that I was going to take misfortune (my misfortune) to another life that I did not have to go throughthat.
My friends ... well, those who believed they were my friends, fled a long time ago.Of the few I keep, the most beloved is in my native Madrid and although we maintain contact (he visited me a few months ago) because in short, it is not for day to day.Others are simply people I appreciate, but I don't know if I would call "friends."I barely leave.I don't feel like anything anymore.I no longer have dreams, or illusions, or wishes.I am a dead man in life, I've been knowing it for a long time.I have already given the same almost everything.
Many tell you that you talk to people (it also happened to me with depression) but I don't have to talk to.Because of my current employment situation (or rather because of it) I can not pay myself an adequate psychological or psychiatric attention and also ... the only thing they did with me was to get into the antidepressants and anxiolytics that the only thing they served was to make me go zombieFor life.Here in Lugo, where I live, psychological attention on the part of Sergas is truly pathetic and delectable ... I suppose they would only give me due intention if "I try" to commit suicide.And of course, what do I do ... I amount to a number eating two tablets ofAlprazolam?.It is not a plan ... if one day (or rather, "when I arrive that day") I face that, I will not "try",
But that said, uncle ... Xavi ... endures everything you can.There will be no cure, there will be no help.Real help, with capital letters.That also sold it to me in 1996. The International Farmafia will not kill the chicken of the golden eggs ... We are alone.But endure, there is no other.
I don't roll up anymore ... that I have already started.
A hug, Xavi.
Greetings to all.

Fuck that downturn has given me when reading this thread, I am 56 years old, one and a half with this crap of illness.
I feel not being able to contribute much, I think that no matter how bad it goes, life is very beautiful to leave it.

@Muerto_Vivo: I also "came out" diabetes at your age, without family history, without drinking or smoking, ... and here I am.
With the technological means we have now (sensors, app, smart watches, insulin pumps, ...), and also forums like this, it is much easier to have good control of diabetes.
Find support in the Association of Diabetics of your city that, in addition to training and information, can offer you psychological support.
Health centers also usually organize workshops for diabetic patients.I assure you that being with other people who have your same illness serves a lot of help.
Take care of yourself and do it thinking about the loved ones you have by your side

@Muerto_Vivo
I don't know how you talk about depression in the past when you see that you are totally immersed in it.
I don't know what to tell you either, I am not in your place, I have my circumstances and you yours.
What I do know, from personal experience, that it is in us to worsen or improve the sensations of problems.And as we get negative, the world falls to our feet, we sink and everything is done ...
I do not know what to tell you because I know that when almost everything is sunk, it falls in a broken bag, but hey, I wish you the best and that the mood returns to you, that with that is already the majority of the problem solved.
And for you want here we are.

@Muerto_Vivo I started reading your post and .... I had a childhood friend, it was like my brother, without family history, good nutrition, without smoking, without drinking, athlete ... and overnight, with 19 years he got sick with leukemia and in less than a month he left .......also.What you have is a horse depression that you have to treat it yes or yes.If that girl is with you it is because she loves you, do not make her the whore of having to live a red line, do not be selfish and think about the people around you and to whom I am sure.Make new friends, believe a life purpose .... If you are not happy with your life!That in the backpack you have to take you to diabetes because too ... but today there are many advances, many things that facilitate you every day, it is useless to regret because for the moment, it has no cure.But we are alive.I go on vacation to Lugo and how it comforts me to walk between his green fields, look at the starClient ignoring the tail, without haste .... You have to value everything that surrounds you and squeeze life to the fullest.
A couple of weeks ago I lost my mother, a wonderful mother .... Tell your parents how much you love them, time spend time .... In short, do not give up, do not stop living.

@Tollo sorry.The last thing he intended was to give you Bajona Man ... a thousand forgives.

@ricki21 ... thanks for the opinion.Although I am old, I am a computer scientist (well ... "I am a computer scientist": right now I am nothing, but in the end) and still I am totally reluctant to technology in regard to "this."Insulin bombs do not even consider, I respect those who do it but I have always refused to become a cyborg.One day the PAC brought me a pot and when I saw it I told myself "What is this?"It turned out to be a kind of patch-sensor that you have to take adhered and I think it connects to the mobile ... I don't know how that is going but once it was known what it was, I returned it to someone.As I say, I respect whoever wants all that tinglado and it is useful, but it is not for me.
nevertheless, thanks for your opinion and support.

@isabelbota thanks for writing.Yes you're right.Depression is never leaving, as I think I said.I speak in the past because in those years - about six or seven - I spent weeks without hardly getting out of bed ... eaten by anxiety, making efforts to breathe.But anyway ...
you are right in everything you say, but yes, as Ortega y Gasset said, "I am me and my circumstance."I think it is the worst illness for someone like me, with my personal idiosyncrasy ... but it is what there is.I got as a gift and I can't return it.

@Cassie to see ... First of all tell you that I regret the death of your friend, it has had to be something brutal and very hard.I lost a friend - also diabetic - of cancer, died in Barcelona just over a year ago.In a month and a half he took it.My father beat cancer - he had it right after this curse fell on me - and they were very dark years.I have lost other friends ... all younger than me and healthy: traffic accident, suicide ... even a very dear cousin who was run over when he was on a motorcycle, a van invaded his lane and took him ahead.Like everyone, little by living a few years, you end up seeing (and suffering) of everything.And you know one thing?Already then - and today more - I would have changed for any of them.I wish I died (which occasions were not missing) instead of any of them.
what I'm going to say now, I don't know how to say it with touch.But don't think I say it with bad intention or to Zaherir, that is not my purpose.I have always said that I would have preferred cancer to this disease, and I explain myself: if I had cancer (which I have many ballots for it) I would fight it.And one of two, I would overcome it and continue with my life, or go and rest in peace.I will never have rest or peace in this life.This puerca disease does not allow me: neither could heal or die.Well, I don't die suddenly, of course ... otherwise he is killing me while consuming me in mind, body and soul.I am cooking in my juice, over low heat.
I understand that after your loss you think differently.I guess it is in each one how life understands.For me there are things that "are not living."I had a political uncle who had diabetes since ... always.It was already older.He ended up losing a leg, then the other, finally plugged him into a dialysis machine: so he spent years ... until one night (my best night) he was stiff in bed.I will not go through that, I swore not.They will not bury me for fascicles (and I feel the hard and sardonic of my expressions, too much revert and too much Bukowski ... among others) I consider that this is not similar to the idea that I have of life.That (I admit) can be as successful or wrong as anyone's.
and frankly, the only thing that has contributed to meThis scourge is one thing ... that over the years you end up losing the fear of death.At least in my case.In my case - although by instinct there is some restlessness and fear, atavistic I suppose - there are days that I wish it.When I think about it, it is my only moment of peace, of calm: knowing that despite everything there is an exit to all this.That torture is not eternal.Because without entering into metaphysics, there is whatever after this life (or although there is nothing) I will have escaped from the rotten jail that is my body ... of this prison that suffocates me day after day.
and what has been said, I hope my words do not offend you, if so, I apologize in advance.And if you come to Lugo ... I will be happy to invite you to something.Of course, I disagree as to the aroma ... "Eau de la Vacca" I call him in Coña ... although in the town where I live there are no cows, the truth is that they do not smell precisely well.Ha ha!.
in short, that thanks to all.

@Muerto_Vivo I add to the previous comments of @ricki21 @isabelbota and @Cassie coincide in practically everything already said, that diabetes is not a rose path can tell you any of those who participate in the forum, and even all theThey read it.

In your case I think that diabetes is another factor, I will personally tell you that when I was diagnosed I was 25 years old, and that I lived it quite badly in the first days, I did not understand what the diabetes implied and I made a world.

Fortunately I have always been a restless mind, I looked for information where I could and analyzed my own experience, my conclusion was that I could adapt to have a "normal" life, and it has been, today I am 50 years old, a wonderful family (woman (womanAnd daughters), at work I have been defending (with its high and low), I have continued to practice sports (with all precautions) as long as I wanted, I have traveled and left, etc ...

And I will tell you that it is very worthwhile, to live all these experiences have undoubtedWe are.

In your case I think the same as the rest, fundamentally you are in a process of depression and that is what you should focus on solving, find something that motivates you, a hobby, a sport (physical or electronic), a group of people withThose to share experiences (friends or acquaintances), look for what fills you, something that makes you happy, sometimes doing something for others fills much more than what you can do for yourself.

In summary, do not give up, keep going, try to improve little by little, it is not necessary to be a radical change, it starts with simple things (eg giving walks, or whatever you want and do not cost to do), find 1something that makes you happy and do it!

I hope these tips serve you, I wish you all the best, many encouragement and keep going !!!

Other days I am more animated ... But today I am an driver after going to the ophthalmologist and remembering that my retinopathy is there and at any time you can advance, enter the forum every morning and see this thread.
It may not be the best day for me to be participatory in the forum.

Some already know, I am 37 years old and diabetes since the 4. I am also a bit "Old School"
Before the sensors appeared (which I started buying before they financed them) although I took care of me a lot, I only saw "the photo" in glucometer, but I did not know what happened and that resulted in that he will do about 5-6 years Panfotocoagularboth eyes for a little proliferative retinopathy.The world collapsed the day I was diagnosed (and that they see me every 6-12Meses).I always review again and tell me that there are some "cups that we have to be careful and are in quarantine."And whenever I leave any specialist ... the same.The fear of complications no matter how well the gyrhed now carries.Because even having good control ... they can appear or continue.

I try to make "normal" life, but we cannot say that everything is wonderful ... I have many dirty, because I sincerely have limitations and hurt me.What are there worse?I don't even doubt it ... What does our own hurt and we have the right to be selfish and complain ..?Also

It is very good that we are positive, but sometimes it is necessary to fall and step on the background to take impulse.
"Scold", because there are people who feel bad and show us their feelings ... I don't know if it's the most adequal.
Apart from diabetes we all carry a backpack with our life.And the life that touches us apart can make us very difficult for us that optimism and the desire to get out of the hole.Apart from each one has a way to face potholes in life.
With this I mean that one cannot be optimistic and sink into the deepest shit*?No ... but not everything is "Mr Wonderfull and Happy Flower."
Feeling bad is as valid, and necessary as being well.But what is not worth feeling bad always, or going from everything and being "happy chachi."

I go to the psychologist and psychiatrist, and even so sometimes life is uphill.But you have to continue.For us, and for those who love us.
You are right that life is now (without being kamikazes, huh?) And tomorrow, because it will be seen ...

But yes, today I am also a downturn and very sad for those neovants that give me for c*lo and what is to come ...

A big hug to all.